it all looks weird, and the dates are all wrong this is my forth blog talking about this idky i keep gettingshut down.
i think my girl is a real person and someone else knows wh oshe is. maybe its the person keeping her captife to something
idk sometimes i think im just going crazy but woudl a crazy person even ask if the ywere going crazy
my mom wants to see a shrink i told her im fine but she says that ive been crying inmy sleep, like calling out and screaming sometimes and she cnat wake me up. she says either i go talk to her therpissed or their gonna put me on drugs or both maybe.
honestly maybe i need to talk to someone the dreams i have are so beautifol and i feel so good, i dont even know why i would be cryin, but momma took a video of it after the last time she talked about it since i didnt believe her.
idk maybe itll be okay except what if i talk to someone or start taking drugs and then i never dream of her again
i don't know if i coudl live with that
Tuesday, September 1, 2015
Tuesday, June 30, 2015
i got ran out
i hope you guys find me again. i know there werent a lot of you, but it was nice to know i wasnt all the way alone. i dont know why my other blog stopped working i got a little scared and just left it.
still having the dream. when im in the dream, shes the prettiest girl in the world, and i really want to touch her and smell her hair. i never thought about girls like that, i started to think maybe i was gay or something? but i dont get hot about anyone else like i get about her.
like, not even about boys anymore.
oh yea, and josh broke up with me, i guess cuz i was thinking about the girl in my dreams. i feel bad, i really liked him. not enough to not talk about her, tho. he just didnt understand.
i feel like no one understands. like, i know other peeople have the same dream sometimes, its all over the internet about people like that, but i dont know if anyone has ever had this dream. like, am i the only one that sees her, what does she mean. is she par tof me like the dream books says, or is she someone outside of me.
sometimes people do a thing called dreamwalking. like, indians and stuff did that, and i guess it feels like shes not really me, so maybe shes calling from somewhere else.
if you didnt see my other blog - the one that got shut down, idky - ive had this dream about this gorjious woman for a year now, someimes every night, sometimes only once a week. i miss her when i dont have it, even thought its stupid and simple and nothing ever happens. shes just sitting there, and shes trapped and chained up, and she seems so sad but shes not scared or antying, she just wants out. and i think im supposed to help her or something, but i dont even know what she needs.
i just like being near her every time i dream of her i get closer to her, like it takes all this time while im awake to move in the room were in.
my dad just got home, i gotta go. ill tell you more later. i hope you all find me again
still having the dream. when im in the dream, shes the prettiest girl in the world, and i really want to touch her and smell her hair. i never thought about girls like that, i started to think maybe i was gay or something? but i dont get hot about anyone else like i get about her.
like, not even about boys anymore.
oh yea, and josh broke up with me, i guess cuz i was thinking about the girl in my dreams. i feel bad, i really liked him. not enough to not talk about her, tho. he just didnt understand.
i feel like no one understands. like, i know other peeople have the same dream sometimes, its all over the internet about people like that, but i dont know if anyone has ever had this dream. like, am i the only one that sees her, what does she mean. is she par tof me like the dream books says, or is she someone outside of me.
sometimes people do a thing called dreamwalking. like, indians and stuff did that, and i guess it feels like shes not really me, so maybe shes calling from somewhere else.
if you didnt see my other blog - the one that got shut down, idky - ive had this dream about this gorjious woman for a year now, someimes every night, sometimes only once a week. i miss her when i dont have it, even thought its stupid and simple and nothing ever happens. shes just sitting there, and shes trapped and chained up, and she seems so sad but shes not scared or antying, she just wants out. and i think im supposed to help her or something, but i dont even know what she needs.
i just like being near her every time i dream of her i get closer to her, like it takes all this time while im awake to move in the room were in.
my dad just got home, i gotta go. ill tell you more later. i hope you all find me again
Thursday, June 18, 2015
cant sleep
in the last dream, i think she had been cryin. i cant remember what she said - i cant ever rememver the exact words - but i no she was sadder than i ever seen her. she said she was afraid she was never gonna leave, but she didnt use words
remember when i said it was like she was talkin in my head al l the time, like she wasnt really talkin her mouth dont move but i can hear her. but they aint words, like i dont know what language she talks, i dont think its english, but i know what she meens al lthe time
she gets like this soemtimes, so sad and i want to hold her and tell her its ok and get the handcufs off her. did i tell you she has handcufs? their like old castle handcufs like the kinds in movies, and she says they hurt her but she cant get them off. i always try to get to her to take them away but i cant ever reach her, like shes always just a little bit too far aawy.
i can see her eyes when i close my eyes and idky but shes so sad. like i know it totally sucks to be a hostaj or in prison or captif or whatever, but she isnt mad or trying to excape, shes just really really sad
and that makes me sad to.
maybe now that i rote it all down i can sleep again.
remember when i said it was like she was talkin in my head al l the time, like she wasnt really talkin her mouth dont move but i can hear her. but they aint words, like i dont know what language she talks, i dont think its english, but i know what she meens al lthe time
she gets like this soemtimes, so sad and i want to hold her and tell her its ok and get the handcufs off her. did i tell you she has handcufs? their like old castle handcufs like the kinds in movies, and she says they hurt her but she cant get them off. i always try to get to her to take them away but i cant ever reach her, like shes always just a little bit too far aawy.
i can see her eyes when i close my eyes and idky but shes so sad. like i know it totally sucks to be a hostaj or in prison or captif or whatever, but she isnt mad or trying to excape, shes just really really sad
and that makes me sad to.
maybe now that i rote it all down i can sleep again.
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