in the last dream, i think she had been cryin. i cant remember what she said - i cant ever rememver the exact words - but i no she was sadder than i ever seen her. she said she was afraid she was never gonna leave, but she didnt use words
remember when i said it was like she was talkin in my head al l the time, like she wasnt really talkin her mouth dont move but i can hear her. but they aint words, like i dont know what language she talks, i dont think its english, but i know what she meens al lthe time
she gets like this soemtimes, so sad and i want to hold her and tell her its ok and get the handcufs off her. did i tell you she has handcufs? their like old castle handcufs like the kinds in movies, and she says they hurt her but she cant get them off. i always try to get to her to take them away but i cant ever reach her, like shes always just a little bit too far aawy.
i can see her eyes when i close my eyes and idky but shes so sad. like i know it totally sucks to be a hostaj or in prison or captif or whatever, but she isnt mad or trying to excape, shes just really really sad
and that makes me sad to.
maybe now that i rote it all down i can sleep again.
